A few entries ago, I mentioned that I had been finding pennies. It started when Kirk was first home and I was at the gym. I found pennies there a few times; by the weights, by the trash can in the locker room. It sounds completely random but I always found them on appointment days. I always have found comfort in those pennies.
Right before Kirk's appointment with the liver doctor in May, I found one penny in a parking lot at Briarwood Mall. The kids and I went into the mall while Kirk was in therapy and hung out. We were sitting in the middle seating area in the mall and when I got up to leave, I found two pennies I had been sitting on.
Our parents have both said they find pennies in random places. Kirk found a penny in Lincoln's booster seat last week. No idea how it could have gotten in there.
These days, I find feathers everywhere. In the yard, on the sidewalk, as I'm walking out of the gym at 6:00 in the morning.
Last week we were out to dinner and both kids were under the table (don't judge--anything for a little peace at dinner) and when they both came back to the table, they had each found a penny.
Last week Isa was whining because her iPhone (my old phone) wasn't working and was frozen. She gave it to Kirk and it was frozen on a picture of a penny. He didn't take a screenshot though he wishes he had.
I don't know if any of these things are really signs from a loved one or if they are all just coincidences, but I like to think they are signs. I like to think someone is looking down on us letting us know everything is going to be ok. Someone (or someones) wants us to know they are thinking about us and they see us and they want to send us something to know they are always there.
I hope we keep finding these little signs. I hope we continue to stumble across the pennies and feathers because the comfort I find in them surprises me.
Kirk does need an MRI. After his appointment with the liver doctor at the end of August, she decided she wanted him to repeat his labs and also schedule an MRI. The radiologist who read his CT scan just wants to make sure there isn't another abscess on his liver. Neither of us thinks this is the case, but we do need to be sure.
I hope these pennies and feathers we have found mean it will all be a-ok. Because in my heart, that's what I believe.
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