Halloween was fun, Thanksgiving was great and Christmas was out of the world fun this year. I just love hearing these two talk about Santa and his elves. I love seeing their faces and looking for Punkin every morning, which Isa did, even though she was terrified of him.
So, here we are on January 2nd. It's been almost a year since our lives were turned inside out and upside down. A year since our lives changed forever. A year since we left behind our old selves and became a new, almost better version of who we were before.
This is hard, you guys. I'm not going to lie and tell you it's been easy. We struggle every single day. We struggle to find the balance between who we are now as people and who we are now as husband and wife. We both know you all see it as Kirk is better and he's lucky and WE'RE lucky he's healthy, but it isn't that easy. It isn't as easy as just moving on. It isn't as easy as just taking medication and making it all ok or talking to a counselor and moving on (both of which we are in favor of). It can't be fixed with exercise. It can't be made ok with time because while time may heal all wounds, it doesn't take away feelings.
I'm not talking to any one person or about any one person so please, take no offense to anything I'm saying because it is about no one in particular.
I have come to loathe sayings over the last year. I understand people have no idea what to say, I really do, but I'm begging you, when someone you love is hurting, when someone you love is coming to you because they want you to listen to them, I'm begging you to LISTEN. Don't talk about yourself. Don't talk about someone you know who went through something "similar". Don't tell them what they should do or how they should feel. Don't give unsolicited advice. Did I say listen? Please, do that. Just LISTEN. Offer love, offer support, let the person know if they need you, you're there.
I can tell you again how sick Kirk was. I can tell you all about his hospital stay, his rehab, his recovery. I can tell you how his rehab doctor told him he isn't sure if physically he will ever be his former self. And still, people don't get it. They want to know why he isn't working full time yet, they want to know why he isn't 100%. I know it's out of ignorance, I know it's because you don't see him struggle at home, I know it's because you don't entirely understand how incredibly sick Kirk was. I know it's because you have no idea what kind of impact this can have on someone whether you're the one who was sick or love person who was sick.
Kirk and I are looking forward to 2016. We are looking forward to putting 2015 in the past. While 2015 was a crap year, it wasn't all bad. Maybe I'm a glass half full kind of person, but we learned so much this year about our friends and family and most importantly about ourselves. We learned we are stronger than we think we are. We learned each day is a gift and shouldn't be taken for granted. We learned to celebrate the little things in life. We learned kids are resilient and their love is unconditional. We learned that all bad days must come to an end and the sun is shining on the other side. We learned life is hard and when you feel like you can't handle it, keep going, because you CAN handle it.
Life is a funny thing. It's crazy. It's unexpected. It's unexplainable. Things happen for which we have no explanation. But it's amazing. It's beautiful. It's crazy. It's fun. Life is what you make of it.
So, here's to 2016. A new year which is bound to hold new experiences, new adventures and new stories. It's going to be better than the last.
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