September 22nd, 2011

Yes!  The c-section has been scheduled for next Thursday, September 22nd.  It's taken a few days, but I've come to grips with having the c-section and am feeling much comfortable about it all.  At this point I'm trying to avoid anything that may make go into labor!  I was at the grocery last night and all I could think about was walking too much and having the baby in the frozen food aisle!  The doctor last week told me they have had people come in with legs hanging out of them: I don't want to be one of those people!!

I've been concerned over the last week that people think I'm one of those annoying anti-Cesarean people.  I'm not!  I really enjoyed the whole labor process.  I wish I could find the words to describe it.  I don't consider anyone less of a mother who has had a c; that's just ridiculous.  I did a lot of research over the last week and found there are some people who actually think anyone who has had a c can't understand what it's like to be a mother.  Such crap.

Something interesting I've noticed over the last week is people's reactions when I tell them I'll be having a c.  Most of the time, if they've had children, the normal reaction is "awwww" followed by a sad face and "is there any chance she could flip?".  Kirk said he even noticed when he told someone at work and she said "awwww".  If it's someone who hasn't had children, they tell me "that's so close"!  I love that "glass half full" attitude!

I'm not going to lie: coming to terms with having a c has been hard for me.  I've been talking to a couple friends who have had c-sections and they've given me the lowdown so I know what to expect.  I feel like for everyone who tells me it was a piece of cake, there's someone else to tell me how horrible it was for them.  I know there will be a lot of pain and I know there are risks, but I don't have a choice.  I have to do this for our little girl.  (I will never understand how anyone can request a c.  Seems weird to me!)  I know how I feel matters and I understand that, but her safety is most important.  If that means having a c, then forget about me: let's do it!

I was at the doctor again today, and while the baby is still breech (in the exact same position as last week), she still hasn't settled.  Maybe there is hope after all!  I had kind of given up on trying to get her to flip seeing as I'm so pregnant and the baby is good size at this point, but I'm totally going to be back at it!  I have another appointment on Monday and we have to be at the hospital bright and early on Thursday.

Should the baby flip before my c (and after my doctor's appointment Monday), they will induce me (not my favorite idea either).  So, one way or the other, (unless I get her to flip before Monday) there will be a baby born next Thursday.

My last day of work is Wednesday.  Kirk was supposed to work through Thursday, but will now be giving up that shift.  I plan to take off through mid-December and Kirk will be off for 3 weeks.

Just wanted to give you all an update.  Thanks again for checking in.  If by some small miracle she does a flip, I'll let ya know!  :)