There was an episode on last week that had something to do with lessons learned on the Oprah Show. I cried through the whole show which may have something to do with the show itself but probably more to do with these darn pregnancy hormones.
There were a couple lessons that got to me. The first was a lesson from Toni Morrison. There was much more to her story (she's Toni Morrison for goodness sakes and can tell a much better story than I!) but the gist of it was taking a second to recognize your children when they walk into the room; or when you walk into the room for that matter. Today when I walked into Lincoln's room at daycare, he ran over to me from the other side of the room and was yelling "MAMA MAMA MAMA!!!!" It was the best feeling. Walking into that room knowing that I was the only one he saw and no one else mattered made me feel so special. I want Lincoln to feel that way when HE walks into the room because that's the way I feel about him. I wish I could run across the room and yell "LINCOLN LINCOLN LINCOLN!" I want him to feel like he's the only one in the room that matters.
The second lesson seems so obvious: slow down. That's it. Just slow down and enjoy life. It seems like the easiest thing to do and yet it's so difficult. I never want to look back at the years we have with Lincoln (and the little one on the way) and wish I had done something different. Or think, "I wish we had..." or "Why didn't we ever...". I want to enjoy it all. I've already learned how quickly the time goes by. I realize in a blink of an eye, Lincoln will be graduating from college and starting his own journey. Maybe that's being a little ridiculous, but the last 21 months could not have gone by any more quickly. I look at Lincoln and wonder where the time has gone. I know I need to slow down and enjoy every second and moment with him.
I never want to forget the way he literally YELLS "YYYYAAAAYYY!!!!" after hearing a song or singing a song or the way he says "ticko ticko ticko" when he tickles Kirk or I or the how he blows me a kiss when I tell him I love him or his excited face. He is my greatest accomplishment to date. I want him to know how special he is to me every single day. I will slow down to enjoy all of the little moments we have together.
I'm so sappy these days! Damn hormones.
Thanks to everyone for being here with me.
(Thank you Jennifer of Jenny Lane Studios for taking yet MORE fantastic pictures of Lincoln. I loved them all, but the one above was my favorite of the bunch. I'm not sure why it's fuzzy. Her picture isn't fuzzy; must be the way it downloaded.)
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